Psalm 139:23-24 — “Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.”
As early as Aesop’s fables (c. 550 BC) we hear a line that has been echoed throughout the centuries, ”We would often be sorry if our wishes were gratified” (The Old Man and Death). James Russell Lowell once wrote, “Granting our wish one of fate’s saddest jokes is.” Anatole France put it this way, “Beware my lord! Beware lest stern Heaven hate you enough to hear your prayers!” (The Crime of Sylvestre Bonnard, 1881, pt. II, ch. 4) And Oscar Wilde quipped, “When the gods wish to punish us they answer our prayers” (An Ideal Husband, 1895, Act II)
In our day the saying is, “Be careful what you wish for.” Maybe it’s these cautionary quips or maybe it is just instinctive, or maybe it’s learned through painful experience…no matter the cause, in prayer — the truth is that we are often afraid to ask for what we really want. Maybe we are afraid that God will not answer and that our faith will be less as a result. Perhaps we really are unsure of what we want and if what we are asking for is good for us. The danger in asking God for what we want is that He may give you exactly what you ask for! Are we ready for that? If God answers your request for your husband’s salvation —are you prepared for the opportunity to share Christ with him when God provides it? If you ask God for financial freedom and to get out of debt, are you prepared for Him to expose your need to others so that they can help? Are you prepared to stop buying things you don’t need and take the difficult job he provides you with even if it is in another state? When you ask God for His will for your life and He seems to be indicating that you go back to school, or start a business, or become a missionary…will you heed His call?
David seems to throw caution to the wind when he prays, “Search me, God, and know my heart.” David knows that if he cherishes sin in his heart that God will not hear his prayers. He knows sin cannot stand in the presence of a holy God and must be eradicated/killed…nothing could be more dangerous than to ask this of God! Then he says “test me.” Put me to the test, Lord! This test is not graded on a curve — it is a pass/fail test! Are we praying dangerous prayers? Are we praying that God do everything, short of death, to bring our children into saving faith? Are we praying for God to use us however He sees fit? Are we willing to put God on the line in such a way, that if He doesn’t show up, we will absolutely fail and we have no other back-up plan? Are we asking God to search our hearts, to know our thoughts and to test us? These are dangerous times. And dangerous times call for dangerous prayers!
God, You alone are good and You alone are God. Today I want to put my faith in You in such a radical way that there is no other hope for me, in heaven or on earth. I am trusting You today, for every provision — financially, spiritually, and physically. I am listening for Your voice and today I commit — I promise — that when I hear Your voice, I will obey it…no matter what You ask me to do. Help me be faithful in the small steps You ask me to take as well as the giant leaps of faith. God, today I ask You to search me, know my heart, cleanse me of all unrighteous thoughts or activities, and allow me to experience victory in Jesus Christ my Lord. Amen.