1 Samuel 1:10 – In her deep anguish Hannah prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly.
Chances are likely that if you’ve been alive long, you’ve prayed prayers of “deep anguish”. It’s interesting that in times of intense hurt that both those who trust in Christ and those who don’t even believe in God both pray desperate prayers. As the old saying goes: there are no atheist in foxholes. Webster defines anguish as: extreme pain, distress, or anxiety. Have you ever prayed in “deep” anxiety or pain?
Sometimes in the midst of great grief or suffering, God can feel far away. Sometimes God can appear silent or even worse, apathetic or uncaring to our prayers. The enemy fills our heads with lies and questions God’s goodness, so we begin to wonder. If we are being honest, each one of us have had a crisis of faith or will have at some point during our life. But as David so beautifully observed: we can’t escape God’s love (Psalm 139:7-12). Sometimes for me personally, it can seem as if Satan is relentlessly trying to bring every truth of God’s Word into question. Time and time again God reminds me: His Word is true, even when it doesn’t “feel” like it.
Today we see a desperate prayer of Hannah. A barren woman who was loved by her husband but unable to conceive a child. This woman comes before God and prays, weeps, and pleads with God to intercede. I imagine her prayer in “dep anguish” didn’t just come out of one painful experience. She and her husband must have tried to conceive time and time again and she was unable to carry a child. Hannah knew what everyone of us will learn: God is the only one who can answer our most desperate prayers.
Perhaps you’re like Hannah and you’ve been praying in deep anguish. Maybe you’ve prayed for mercy and that God would spare someone’s life. Maybe you’ve prayed a child might be delivered from a drug addiction. Maybe you’ve prayed for a job. Maybe you’ve prayed for a better marriage. Whatever you’ve been pleading with God about, sometimes it can seem like He isn’t listening or even aware of your suffering. I promise He is. One thing I’ve learned over the course of the 9 years I’ve been following the Lord is: I can trust Him even when I don’t “feel” Him. He will keep His promises.
Today as you prepare to pray, I wonder: has the enemy convinced you that God doesn’t care? Has doubt began to creep in and the anguish has become deep? Is your heart heavy under the stress and pain with whatever your dealing with? Begin your prayer here today. Just as Hannah said concerning her prayer, let us seek to do today: “I was pouring out my soul to the Lord” (1 Samuel 1:15). Come before God in humble honesty and pour out your soul to Him. No matter what the enemy or anyone else has said let us: Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever. (Psalm 136:1 NIV).
Father, help us come before you in total honesty and submission today. Lord, let us leave our religious views of prayer at the door and instead come seeking Your faithful love. Our hearts cry out before You knowing that You and You alone are the Author and Sustainer of our faith. Jesus our hearts cry out for Your promises to fill us with joy. We confess every moment of doubt, every painful heartache, and every fear that has crept into our minds. Lord, we know that you are faithful and we can come to You in our desperation, You alone will give us rest. We thank you for Your unfailing promises and the love that You show us. In Jesus’ name we pray, amen.